I'm like grounded for today. I hoped today only. Went to swim, swim for 2hrs. Finally get some suntanning aft like 2 wks. But not enough, shall continue tanning for next 1wk. Alot went through my thoughts when I was swimming. Felt great aft tt. Althgh the heart ache is still there, but I manage to kan kai (see open, hahs direct translation).

I shall not think and bother anymore. But now my worries is how am I suppose to treat you when I see you. Ignore you? Laugh and be crazy, showing that I'm ok?

I have realised and tell myself that, whatever that has happened last week was my long wish birthday present. And presents are usually meant to be used or kept as memories. So last week was the best memories I will remember for as long as I can.

I know and understand what you have been doing this few days. I will no longer focus on the pain and heartache (taken from someone's advice). CHARYL IS MOVING ON WITH HER SHITTY LIFE : DD

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